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Friday, July 26, 2019


What's your biggest "I don't often say it aloud, but eventually I'd like to..." aspiration? 

I asked this on Twitter this week & didn't get much in the way of responses - but I realized after writing it, that I wanted to expand on some of my own answers. Here are the three things at the top of my someday-I'm-gonna list - & as age 35 approaches (in just over a week, yikes!), I'm thinking of when & how to hit all of them while I'm still (relatively) young.

Time flies, right?

So here's what I want to do - if not soonish, then eventually, whenever eventually is. 

1. Get certified in spinning

To be honest, I almost feel embarrassed saying (typing?) this one aloud, because it is so aspirational & far-off. Like, I am nowhere near being able to do this - not within the next year, & maybe not even within the next two years, & beyond that, am I really going to try to get certified when I'm, like, 37? That seems weird.

But look. I didn't start working out until I was 32 years old. Thirty-two years old. I waited too long - but I finally found something I love, & I am dedicated to it, & while I don't ever actually want to teach spinning, I feel like becoming certified in it would be a testament to my hard work & my commitment & my real, genuine love of this activity. Just to say I did it, you know?

2. Write a book

This has always been at the top of my "someday I will list," & strangely, it seems to have fallen further down the list in terms of my urgency or overall interest. I think I've been so consumed by writing elsewhere - for Cleveland Magazine, on my blog, for the upcoming Body Talk anthology I told you about - that writing a book seems less & less like the only or even the best way to showcase my work.

But I still want to write a book someday. I've always known, to some extent, that I will write a book someday. At some point, the time will feel write, & I will do it. It hasn't felt right yet - the timing, the subject matter, my interest level, my ability to dedicate myself to it... all of it. But I know it's coming.

3. Become a mom

I really don't like when people ask when/whether we're planning to have kids. I know that some people are very open about their parental aspirations, but for me - someone who long thought I didn't want to have kids - it just doesn't usually feel right to discuss aloud.

That said, yes: I will confirm that, indeed. I want to become a mom. Mike & I hope to become parents before I turn 40 (which gives us another half a decade) because I don't want to be an old mom - but I'd rather be an old mom than no mom at all! I'm not comfortable delving further into timelines or plans beyond that, but there you have it.

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Annnnd there you have it: three things I'm hoping to do sooner rather than later. Three things I don't like to talk about for fear that I can't or won't achieve them. Three things I'm putting out into the universe - & to you, friends - so that I can name them, mark them, & work toward them.

Any "secret" aspirations you're comfortable sharing with me? I'd love to hear them - & to cheer you on! 

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