So here I am, one year & seven months into my District residency, & every once in awhile something happens that causes me to reevaluate not only my life here, but my life in general - who I am & how far I have (or, in some cases, have not, but luckily this isn't one of those times) come.
Today I had one of thoe cartoon-light-bulb-over-my-head realizations that my emotions are finally in tact. And while I still have some absurdly undefined issues that need to work themselves out, I'm pleased to notice that I'm not a 16-year-old emo kid anymore. This afternoon, as I made one last shot at communication & then cleanly & efficiently severed ties with someone I care about who has no interest in reconciliation or talking things through like a mature adult, I happily recognized that I am:
- relatively emotionally secure
- ridiculously resilient
- not nearly as creepy as I sometimes think
- sufficiently but not unrealistically optimistic
- pretty freakin' normal.
Thanks, DC.
I feel the same way sometimes about not feeling like an adult until I do something adult-like. Lately I haven't been feeling adult-like... hopefully that will change. Great post! (as usual :-))
ReplyDeleteWell, I love you and that will probably never change. :)
ReplyDeleteok, it won't change... i realized how stupid "probably never change" sounded after I posted!
ReplyDeleteHahaha, Caiti, I get it. And thanks. <3
ReplyDeleteFrom someone who can't claim to know you that well, you absolutely seem all the things you mention above (in the bullet points - NOT the crazy part) and not in the least bit creepy.
ReplyDeleteI'd also add witty, very observant and insightful to your list.
Oh - and owner of a great new dress :)
So either you have fooled me with this blog and your Twitter...or you're a pretty darn cool adult :) I'm going with the latter.
I'm jealous of your "aha" moment :( Lol, love you!!!
ReplyDeleteIt makes me very happy to read this. It's great to see you realize things that I've noticed for a long time about you. I love you!
ReplyDeleteI've been a little behind on your blog, but I've finally left comments on some of your other entries from this week, too!
Interesting read. :]
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed it.